You see I'm listening to house or is it disco. And from what era? I cant even tell. 70's, the milleniumm000''sssss??? Who knows..?
What I know is that it is without doubt groovy but with a blatantly generic riff. Basically pure shit.
It's on my Ipod so I should have had a hand in its selection. Ok its "Nookie Feat Deezim". A Drum and Bass producer doing a house track to eclecticzize his album. Well sandwiched in-between dirty breakbeats and filthy, digusting DnB basslines, I am assuming it might well work.
I kind of want it to end though. Will it ever? It just did.

So, today I decided to imbide half a bottle of vodka and see what it does to my typing abiliy, wghichj it is having a remarkable affect on. I am actuallly still correcting words yest everything is coing out wrong. I should have watched "coming To America" on Demand instead. Fail safe. Eddie Murphy. Even better, Trading places. I suggest highly. The "Kings of convenience " are quite nice.

Sorrow. Topic of today. I have experienced a lot of sorrow in my life. In fact, I never knew I had until recently. Sorrow though has plagued my life like a slightly dislocated left elbow. And thus the reasoning behind, as well as at the very forefront of this entry into the blog, that is mine apparently.
So there are, let us say, five features of sorrow
1.) Absolute yearning and utter "fuck me" at what has happened.
2.) Acceptance at whatever has happened, has happened for a reason that is not great but can't be helped
3.) A brilliant addition to the repertoire of emotions that one can experience in a lifetime, thus making it salivating worthy.
4.)Religious sect nonsensense, that, by the preceding sentence, has relegated anyone believing in it being a sign from a higher power, being a bunch of arse
5.) Just pure sadness. Sorrow. Upest. Wishing things didn't have to be this way. Why does the world have to be so cruel.

The answer to all these, I do not have unfortunately, because I lost it fighting a figment of my imagintaion in Primark/Walmart.

But one can conclude that sorrow is an universal emotion done absolute injustice by this post. An emotion that incoporates sadness and regret. An emotion that is hard to overcome without alcohol, benzos, women and entire seasons of OZ. An emotional state that I personally don't know how to deal with since I spent my whole life making sure I blocked it out, until the Psychologists' got hold of me.